Check it: I looked into my crystal ball, and I saw that 2009 is going to be awesome (for all of us, but for me especially).
Last year, when I was myspace blogging, I made a big deal about the New Year and setting goals, not resolutions, and blah blah blah. Even this past fall, when the semester started, I took some time to set some goals. (Some of which I have done NOTHING about)
As I’m looking down the barrel to 2009, my brain starts ticking off stuff for the upcoming semester and the year. (Get a job, get my portfolio together, finish my thesis, prepare for a change, spend time with my friends and classmates, start my business, learn to swim, self-host this blog).
But my heart says, Oh, f*ck it. Can’t I just chill out and see what happens?
I’m not saying that goals suck and we shouldn’t make them (maybe I am???) What I mean is – If we really look deep within ourselves we know what the hell we need to do. Do we need to take the next step in our career? Step out on our own? Lose weight? Exercise? Eat healthily? Finally get our teeth cleaned? Do we need to slow down? Spend more time with our loved ones? Concentrate on self-care? Get a life?
Whatever it is I (and you) need to do, WE ALREADY KNOW WHAT IT IS!!!!!!!!! Duh, it’s probably staring us in the face.
My problem, and I’m sure I’m not the only one, isn’t knowing WHAT I need to do. It’s the doing of it that trips me up. I get scared or anxious or doubtful or LAZY and I cop out.
And that is unacceptable.
So I’m not going to make a never ending list of new goals or resolutions or whatever you want to call them.
I’m just going to make one.
Do the things I know in my heart I need to do.
No matter how scared I get or how crazy it seems or what other people think. Some things I just KNOW I’m supposed to do.
So this year, I’m just going to f*cking do what my scattered little brain wants and I’m not going to over think it.
And as I write these words my brain says, but wait, you need to plan, you need to think, you NEED to worry…. and I feel the old self-doubt and anxiety pitter pattering through my chest.
SO I take a deep breath and acknowledge that this sh!t ain’t gonna be easy. But it is necessary. Didn’t Tupac say, “I don’t want it if it’s that easy”?
Otherwise, what would be the point? I believe that is would almost be stupid to add “Complete MPA school” or “Get a job” to my 2009 goals.
Why?
Because those things are not OPTIONAL. They are GOING to happen. It’s a wrap.
But I haven’t always followed my heart (or exercised, for that matter). So I’m going to concentrate to those things that I have let fall by the way side. (ahem, me!!!)
(Aside: I heard somewhere that it takes a month to form a habit. So if I resolve to do the things I know I should, by February I should be good. )
So yeah, the crystal ball said it was going to be a super awesome year. Can’t you feel it!!!?!?!?!?
Hello! Obama is going to be inaugurated, and W is headed back to Texas. That alone is a major achievement.
And
Recessions are hotbeds for innovation, so even though the economy is sh!t we need this time renew ourselves (like when the forest burns down, then it regrows as a more diverse ecosystem)
And
We get another year to grow and live up to our full potential; proving that we can be better than our former selves.
Yay for us!
Happy New Year, party people!
Tell me what your 2009 goals/resolutions are AND what are you most looking forward to in the OH NINE.
